Mavs 2020 draft pick Terry retires, citing anxiety
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Tim MacMahonESPN Staff Writer
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“I decided to let go of the game that has formed a large part of my identity,” Terry wrote. “Something that has guided me since my first steps. While I’ve had many amazing achievements, made unforgettable memories, and made lifelong friendships, I’ve also been through some of the most difficult times in my life. It began to devastate me, instead of building me up. I began to doubt the value of myself and despise it more than anyone else could. I was plagued by intrusive thoughts, nausea, and difficulty taking normal breaths due to the rock that would rest on my chest. It seemed to weigh more than what I could carry.
“This is just a brief description of the anxiety this sport has caused me, and while I’m grateful for every door it has opened for me, I can’t continue this fight any longer for something I have fallen out of love with. “
Terry, 22, scored 13 points in 13 career NBA games. He was drafted after one season at Stanford, where he earned Pac-12 All-Freshman recognition.
Terry took a lengthy leave of absence for personal reasons during his rookie season in Dallas and again during training camp entering his second season. The Mavs waived him at the end of that preseason — despite owing Terry a guaranteed $3.3 million over the next two years — and he spent much of the 2021-22 season on a two-way deal with the Memphis Grizzlies.
“To most, I will be forever known as a bust, a failure, or a waste of talent,” Terry wrote. While those are true in basketball, it is the biggest mistakes in life that lead us to our greatest success. There is so much more out there for me in this vast universe and I am excited to discover it. To be able to find my identity beyond being a basketball player for the first time.
“I am eternally grateful to those who have believed in me and apologize to those that I have let down. I am now on a different path, one that will hopefully lead me to happiness and allow me to love myself again. “
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